My daughter has developed some new compulsions. She started this thing with her hands a few weeks ago. She curls her hands into fists with her thumb tucked in. Then she puts her thumbs on the outside of her fingers. Then inside, the outside. She does it continuously. When I asked her about it, she said, "One, two, three, four is one, one to three, four is two." I realized she is making 4 movements then is counting that as ONE, then four more moments counts as TWO, etc. I asked her how much she is counting to. She said, "100, always 100!"
I must admit, it made me sad. It freaked me out. I saw the crazy. I saw her on TV in years on a "Obsessed!" trying to work through her OCD. I will also admit it made my OCD amp up like crazy. Since my primary OCD manifestation is ruminations, or worry, I began to worry about what people will think, how she will cope, if she will ever find a husband, will she be the crazy cat lady down the street, will she become a hoarder . . . see how bad it is? It sounds silly, but the progression is so seamless in my head it just takes on a life of it's own. I can laugh about it, but it still worries me.
When I see her doing it, I try to get her interested in something else. I will ask her to hold my hand, or give me a hug, or set the table for dinner. Usually that works. After a while she said, "You just want me to stop fidgeting." I agreed and she laughed.
Now she is doing something weird with her mouth. I think she is couting, but she is clacking her teeth together. She is making this crazy movement with her mouth. It is maddening. I am being full-out with this and simply telling her to stop. She usually does, but sometimes she replies, "I can't!".
My OCD immediately returns to crazy and then I stat freaking about how I caused the mouth thing to happen by stopping her from the hand fidgeting. Then I admonish myself for not allowing her to do that since it was less noticeable that the facial thing.
Do you see how maddening it all is? I can only imagine what this will all be like when she is a teenager!